I guess I'm finally fine
Aaj Mera semester exam tha, first paper, jo ki bohot hi badhiya gya. This is not about it... it's a relationship post, I'm sorry for anyone who doesn't like it.
Anyways, kal se mere bf ka mood thik nahi hai, because uske ghar wale use baar baar bahar ke kaam btate hai aur wo bechara padh nahi pata. Bhari dopeher mai, 44°C mai bank jana pdh raha hai 3 din se and he's an introvert so it's physically and mentally draining for him, i totally understand.
Aaj Mera paper tha to we didn't talk much the whole day, I was expecting to spend some time together on vc as we are in a ldr...but uska mood aaj bhi thik nahi tha and he never tells me what he wants to Maine hi pucha ki kuch time akele rehne ka Mann hai kya, wo bhi sidha haan nahi bola, he just asked me if I'm going to bed...I said not yet....then he said gn....I didn't feel sad or angry I just felt meh! Like that never happens, I either feel sad or angry but today I felt like it doesn't matter to me whether he doesn't talk to me or even feel comfy enough to share with me .... because he never does, I have asked him a million times but he doesn't and today I think I have reached a place(mentally) where I don't really care and now I understand what they mean by "your partner is not your whole life but just a part of it". That's all.