u/Curious-Comedian-285

It ended bad. Very badly. Don’t want to talk about it. I’m not sure if it can ever be fixed. I guess only time can tell. So for now, I need to move on. But I don’t know where to start. I feel like I can’t live without this person which is extremely over dramatic cause not like they have given me any attention. Attention to another woman which I ruined out of jealousy, (mind you I just told her the truth) so yeah I’m a piece of shit and now he hates me. I must be some sort of masochist because I still want him. Maybe I want the good times we had? How to I get over it? Stop looking at his social medias? Distract myself with hobbies? Talk to old friends? I don’t think dating is going to happen anytime soon. How do you heal? I want to feel less lonely..

I went to go see you back in July of last year cause I live in a different state. I loved you. Wanted you to be in my life as much as possible. You were talking to another woman but I thought only as FWB. After I went to see you. You barely said two words to me. I saw you on Facebook giving her all the attention. For about a year you strung me along with 0 effort. I get a text from her and she tells me back in October you asked her to be your girlfriend. I got pissed. Told her everything about me and him. And the other women. She told me he called me a piece of shit and that I’m psycho. He was still lying to her though. Said I fabricated screenshots which I have not. Really, I’m so uneducated when it comes to technology but thanks that you think I’m able to do that. She’s still following him on social medias and he’s cleaning up his following list as to hide something, he’s doing whatever he can to weasel back into her life with lies and scummy behavior. While he hasn’t said a word to me after she found out. Not like he was speaking to me much before. I let my ego and insecurity get the best of me thinking maybe he didn’t find me attractive enough when I saw him in Vegas. But we also had problems before that so I don’t know. It’s a long story but I tried telling her before I went to Vegas. That could be it but I don’t know. I’m just so heartbroken, I don’t know what to do. I don’t know how to get over him. I feel I’m some sort of masochist still wanting him after his behavior. How do you get past this?