Dont know how to tell wife about latest relapse, really afriad shell leave me
Im a gambling addict. Been gambling since i was 14 years old. Ruined like my whole life. Ive lost like 300k dollars over the years. Taken loans on my wifes name without she knowing. She still with me. My parents helped me a lot also. We have 2 kids together. Since 2023 i quit gambling and managed to get her out of debt and am paying mine month for month. The problem is ive last months gambled a lot because of o debt that was due to be payed or i would be bankrupt. Now i lost 13 k and need 8k to catchup with everything. I cant take a loan on my name and i dont know any friend that will lend me money. My wife told me that if i gamble one more time, she will leave me. Im really afraid. Shes my everything and our relationship has improved so much the last year. I regrer my relapse and now i have taken measures so i dont fall into gambling again (installed gamban on my samsung).
What should i do and how should i tell my wife about this? If she leaves me, i feel like my life is destroyed even though i have my children and will do everything for them i love them to death, shes my other half.
I really would love for a friends help because that would save my relationship with my wife and i kmow this time i would fall into the hole.