This is just a rant/vent so don't bother reading if you dont have the time this isnt important, imnot even sure why I'm doing this.
I've always felt like I would never have someone be my other half you know. Or that I would never get to be in a relationship like everyone else. I've always dreamed about having a school relationship but of course that was never reslly on the cards as I'm gay and well gay relationships just don't really happen like that. Well I was wrong.
My friends have all been in relationships, are in relationships, or have simoly just been on dates. They got to experience something I feel like I never will. My friends all have these stories about people they've talked to, and they always manage to meet someone new, but whenever it comes to me no matter how hard I try to look my best and act my best no one ever shows interest in me. I see everyone around me, getting into relationships and having fun, meanwhile I'm sat in the corner of the room not feeling like I'm good enough. I know I should never think of my worth as low just because I'm single, but it's hard because love is every where around me, and I just don't seem to catch it, and no one seems to have it for me like that. I'm a year away from finishing school and I haven't even experienced a talking stage yet, I feel like I'm so behind and sometimes I just wonder if there is no one out there for me.
One of my friends was asked a question during a hangout before, and it was "What would you give to each person in this room", and my friend said that they would give me a boyfriend because they thought I needed it. Am I so unlucky in love that my friends believe I need some in my life? I haven't actually talked about this to anyone, so it hurts to know that my friends believe I need someone to love me. The fact that people all around me are getting into relationships, and they acknowledge that Im not hurts, because it just proves my thoughts of me falling behind. I know this all sounds silly but it's something I just don't know how to properly say.
There's so much more I couldnt go on about I'm just not sure how to actually put words to it.