15f, sorry for the yap, i just needed somewhere to get these off my shoulder.
sometimes i get like extremely horny to the point my pants are DRENCHED in discharge. I'm currently in a situation where i don't have my own room and have to share one with my mom, and i don't have enough privacy to masturbate (maybe sometimes at like 4am when she's FINALLY asleep or whenever im showering).
And if i am ever home alone, i end up getting overstimulated when masturbating because it's difficult to imagine or find anything on the internet that really gets me goin. I can't think/touch myself to any crushes.. well, because, i dont have a crush. And celebrity-wise, it feels kind of weird masturbating to celebrities..
-- On the topic of celebrities: it's really odd to me that i've been lesbian my whole life and suddenly 1-2 years ago, i discovered korean actors/singers/idols etc. and i've been bisexual(fem. preferred) ever since. And a specific kpop idol (J.one iykyk) has really piqued my interest. And though i now DO KNOW that i'm VERY into Monolids/epicanthic folds, i haven't been able to have an actual crush on someone. And there's only been ONE TIME where my ovulation phase has gotten so bad that i had infact been able to touch myself to a person.
-- Back to the overstimulation part, ive seen people say to rub very slowly but it's never worked out for me. It's either i just get bored and the horniness runs out or im just completely dry. Any advice?