I'm so sorry, I have no where else to go
I'm really sorry, I know nobody knows me and it's nobody else's problem, but maybe I just need to write it down
I feel like all of my feelings are being dismissed by people including my parents, I'm heavily anxious and I can feel myself spiralling, I literally feel like I'm wandering around on edge with nothing to calm me, there is nobody to hold me still, I need somebody to hold me still
I feel so alone, I feel empty but full of horrible sludge at the same time, I feel like I can't sit still, jittery, and like my head's full of water and my eyes are on fire
Nobody wants to listen to me, I am not usually the one to have problems, I'm usually the one to listen to everyone else, I am my family's and my friends shoulder to cry on, always
It's like people don't believe that I am not ok, they're just walking away and I'm being dismissed over and over
Three weeks ago I told my mum she upset me & made me anxious, she ignored me
I've been telling her that I'm not okay and she has ignored me over and over
She is now gaslighting me telling me I've made her cry and that she "doesn't understand the issue", I have said very calmly and clearly what I'm feeling, and she is pretty much telling me that my feelings are not valid and she also told my dad that I'm being abusive and aggressive?! Omfg, I am HURTING and asking for help and support, I've not said anything bad about anyone or used any bad words towards her, I've just been so open, poured my heart out ffffffuuck
I literally just need some support ffs
I am begging for help
I've never asked for help and now I'm begging, my parents don't want to know omg
What is happening
I was on anti anxiety medication, but when I last requested a repeat prescription the gp surgery called me and told me they can no longer prescribe this medication, and there's no alternative so they made me go cold turkey on anti anxiety meds...
Surely they should have called me in advance to sort out a new medication
I feel like I'm going to explode or walk into traffic because I don't know where I'm going
Guys I'm so sorry I need somebody to just hold me still and ground me