Okay, I know this isn't exactly a place to vent, it took me exactly two months to post this photo here. Since I was a child, I've torn up my photos. Doctors linked this to my autism and later to the fact that I suffered various abuses, and after years I discovered that my disgust with my body was just gender dysphoria. However, now I think it's too late for me. Besides, my face is disgusting and I feel like there's no miracle in the world capable of making it more feminine or convincing because it's too masculine in my view. I can't stand mirrors, so it's difficult for me to say. I know that hormone treatment can help with the body, but hormones won't work miracles on me. To top it all off, here in Brazil, facial feminization surgery costs $18,000 and I don't think I have any organs I could sell lol... 😑. Add that to the depression and the only thing I can think about is suicide, but every day I see stories here and it's become a hobby to observe everyone's transformation. I've noticed that my coffee doesn't have a sweet and bitter taste, but I'd like to know if there's any way to change that? Any tips? I'll literally accept any help or advice because I can't take it anymore.