u/Crispybaconcrunch

(16F) I’m so fucking depressed, my (16M) boyfriend has always had a problem with “gooning” to girls online and he’s gotten to a point where he dosent want to stop for the excuse of “I know I’ll fail anyway”.

He’s the loveliest guy I have ever met and I don’t neccessar want to leave him. He’s nothing but a sweetheart and he compliments me all the time.
Recently he’s told me he’s on a journey to reduce time on those sites / videos and it’s gone on for about a week now only to find out by him he’s lied the whole time.

He made an Instagram account I can’t find he made afew weeks ago. He admits to following hundreds of women and liking as many posts as possible so he can get recommended more and now he’s refusing to tell me the name. “I dunno” I’m so fucking sad I can’t take this bullshit anymore.

For someone who’s always sad I compare myself he seems to love looking at other girls online and wonder why I hate myself.

What do I even do anymore :(
He’ll never stop at this rate.

I (17F) am incredibly insecure and always have been, self image is something I have struggled with my entire life and deep down I feel sick to my stomach seeing girls prettier than me saying “omg I’m so fat/ugly/etc”. My boyfriend (17M) is the sweetest guy I have ever met seriously I couldn’t ask for anyone better. He treats me better than anyone could and tells me I’m beautiful every day I love him.

But what throws me off is in the early stage when I discovered his porn/gooner addiction. On his phone on almost every single app is full of it and I still remember the exact day he told me he subscribed to onlyfans and promised not to do it again. He’s made so many promises to stop and never touch it and he’s broken it every single time.

Sometimes deep down I have thoughts about breaking up for the best because it’s something that will never leave my head. The idea of getting of to girls who have better looks and assets than you and the feeling of “I’m not enough” for my boyfriend breaks my heart all the time.

How am I supposed to stop comparing myself or love who I am or even feel fulfilled if my boyfriend can’t go one day without looking at other girls stripping :/ I’m not necessarily looking for advice I just need to know anyone who experiences this at any point in their life because it hurts me on such a level

Ate a whole pizza with a whole roll of cheesy garlic bread

I’m a such fatass

Holy SHIT my stomach is gonna combust though my organs

I’m cooked

Wha do I do to relieve stomach agony

Wish me luck ✌️