I’m in first year engineering at Shri Ramdeobaba College of Engineering and Management and honestly… I don’t know if college life is supposed to feel like this.
People kept hyping engineering life so much, but most days I just feel stressed, lonely, guilty and mentally exhausted.
The fees here are so high and sometimes I genuinely wonder what we’re even getting in return. The campus is not even that impressive. There’s barely proper places to sit peacefully, and even if you stand somewhere on the campus roads, guards start telling you to move aside like you’re doing something wrong 😭
Hostel life also feels weird to me. Maybe I’m just very different from most people here. I like genuine, kind people and deep friendships, but a lot of people feel oversmart, fake, mean or just too superficial. Everyone’s trying to look cool all the time. Because of that, I mostly stay alone.
Also even if i try to talk to them they just ignore..
I do have friends, but most of them aren’t in Nagpur, so it gets lonely sometimes.
And then there’s this constant pressure of
assignments, submissions, attendance, future tension, placements, emotional struggles, trying to “figure life out” .
I had a really rough JEE phase too. I genuinely feel I had the potential for IIT, but life situations messed up a lot of things for me. Whenever I see my college gate, I sometimes feel regret and guilt instead of excitement. Especially knowing placements here aren’t amazing either.
And the worst part is… I still have huge dreams. So my brain constantly keeps thinking:
“Am I wasting my potential?”
“Will life become better later?”
“Will I ever find my people?”
If anyone else went through something similar in first year, please share your experience honestly. Did things eventually get better? How did you deal with loneliness, regret and feeling disconnected from everyone around you?
Also, please guide me honestly if you think I’m wrong somewhere in my mindset too. Maybe I’m overthinking, expecting too much from people, or struggling to adjust, i genuinely want real advice
My first year has almost completed..please guide me as your younger sister.. Yeah and is it worth changing college ? Like should i try giving exams like SAT IELTS for..clgs abroad with 100% scholarship?