I have had several successful manifestations, so I do want to preface this with I understand the mechanics of what is happening.
I imagined finding a kitten on the side of the road and found one within 3 days right by my house. Then I thought how I wished I had found one that looked like my cat that passed away a few months ago… a week later, a cat popped up on my best friend’s Facebook page at a local shelter that she doesn’t follow that looks just like him. She went and got him for me. I had not mentioned anything to her about this.
Eight years ago when my husband and I broke up in college, I fell asleep imagining him coming over in the middle of the night, waking me up and telling me that he loved me. This was before I knew anything about the law. He did exactly that that very night, after 2 months of no contact. I didn’t even know he still had a key, but in my imaginal scene he woke me up by coming in my room, not knocking at the front door. Much scarier in real life than in your head 🤣
Those are just a few examples of my successes, I’ve had more than I can count and I know the common denominator. I imagined him coming back to comfort myself with no expectation of things changing - as I said, it was before I knew anything about this stuff. I wanted a cat and knew it would find me. I missed my current cat, thought it would be wonderful to have a little reminder of him, and had no resisting thoughts. Desire + non-resistance + detachment to outcome.
We are now currently divorcing and for four months I have been robotically affirming, doing SATS, subliminals, or nothing at all depending on my state. If I miss him, I do SATS, if I feel too emotional, I robotically affirm, etc. All of this with a very heavy focus on self concept.
My issue is, I’m having a hard time letting go of the old story the more my self concept improves. I feel taken for granted and angry when I’m in a good self concept state of mind. When I’m not and I feel loving and forgiving, I also feel abandoned. I spend 33% of the time not wanting him, 33% indifferent and knowing it’s mine but I’ll be good regardless, and 33% absolutely heartbroken at the state of our marriage. I do still persist in the new story regardless of how I’m feeling (mostly by affirming “I am not my feelings” or “negative feelings don’t manifest”), but it’s just an emotionally draining way to exist.
I watch the Power of I Am and a few other channels. I am fully aware that identity manifests. Does anyone have recommendations for authentic, healthy ways to maintain a new state without feeling indignant at the old story? I am one of those “burn the word for my love” girlies (iykyk😜), and I expect to be loved with the same passion and fervor I love with. I have two identities at war within me - the goddess that expects to be worshipped and the warrior that will go to the ends of the earth to save her marriage and they are WEARING YOUR GIRL OUT 😩😂