u/CreaturexxFeature

I am currently going THROUGH it and I feel like venting might help. A few months ago I started having this super vivid feeling of deja vu, no worries, I get that a fair bit. The difference is my body suddenly felt like it was completely on fire/tingly feels and it spread through my whole body. I had to remove myself from where I was to calm myself down. I thought it was because someone was smoking pot in our garage (where I was at the time) and I must have gotten some second hand high or something (pot and I are no bueno, it what started my panic attacks in the first place). After it passed it was all good. But tonight I had the same feeling, about two hours ago and then I had it again a half an hour again and then again just a minute ago (my toes are still tingly from it). Like an idiot I googled it and every single thing says that it's frontal lobe seizures. Long story short, I feel like my death is imminent right now and I'm trying really hard to keep it together. More than likely it's just the amount of stress I've been under. I'm 35, my mom is 73 with Parkinson's dementia and I'm her caretaker from Sunday evening to Friday afternoon before I drive the two hours home to actually see my boyfriend and my cats. I've been doing this for over a year. To add to that, my dad passed away last March and I feel like I haven't even had the time to mourn him. I'm so sad, so tired and now my stupid brain is telling me I'm having seizures and there's something so wrong in me that I'm going to die tonight.

Thanks for letting me rant and if anyone is going through the same thing, I'm sorry and feel free to hit me up if you want to talk. Thanks guys

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u/CreaturexxFeature — 13 days ago