Extreme brain fog and memory issues
I was prescribed bupropion 150mg for depression and off the label for ADHD (I don't have an official diagnosis yet) almost 2 months ago and have had multiple varying side effects, most of them mild enough for me to ignore.
The first 2 days I felt like a completely different person, had more energy and was a lot more positive than usual (but the executive dysfunction remained and I was also unable to sleep more than just a few hours). I noticed my ADHD symptoms got SO much stronger, I experienced ADHD symptoms I never had issues with before. I knew that would eventually calm down and I was patient enough to wait at least 2 months to get the full effects of the medication, but the second week things got rough. I was barely able to remember anything, I'm bilingual but most days it felt like I couldn't speak either language at all, forgetting words really often, making careless mistakes, even forgetting what I was saying in the middle of a sentence.
Talked to my psychiatrist and she prescribed me methylphenidate 10mg to help with how unfocused and scatterbrained I was. I read enough from this subreddit to know about the less known side effects and that they would improve over time. And it did for a little bit, but then about 2 weeks ago it came back so strong it scared me. It only gets worse by the day, I lose track of time so much easier and can't focus on anything at all. Forgetting words while speaking, losing my train of thought, fatigued every day and every moment of the day except right before bed time. I didn't notice that my disassociation got really really bad, I lose my balance, I'm unable to make a distinction between what really happened and what I saw in dreams, vision becoming slightly distorted at times, feeling almost complete disconnection from all my relationships and reality as if I'm not living my own life, forgetting appointments, losing literally all focus and motivation I used to have not to mention the EXTREME brainfog and completely losing track of time. Over the past week I've made so many unthinkable mistakes due to forgetting what I was doing mid activity and getting distracted or just staring into space.
The only thing bupropion helped with was completely getting rid of my anxiety, due to nothing feeling real it's rather easy to not care about seeming weird to others. I thought about talking to my psychiatrist about switching to taking bupropion at night instead of when I wake up, or maybe upping the dose, but these side effects are making my life even worse than it was before (surprisingly) and I'm not sure if it's a good idea to continue. Talking to my doctors is almost impossible because I keep forgetting my own side effects and words to even describe what I'm feeling, in general I just feel REALLY stupid now. It feels like my brain is decaying, should I stay on this medicine to wait out the side effects?