Ok, so... I've decided to have THE diagnosis. It's very scary and I'm extremely... I can't even describe it
I've been researching the various ASD stims, such as hand flapping, it's very new to me...
But, I've never ever felt compelled to do so myself. Or... so I thought...
*dum daaam dum daaum*
However, without noticing it myself, I've always been about... FEET!
I like to 'move' around my feet to the sound of music when hyperfocusing. It's very embarrassing :)
And, when stressed, I like to rub my feet together...
Ok, so... this is gonna sound weird, but ... I love to walk barefoot in well-clipped grass. It feels like... I don't know? The feeling in my feet is 1000% more sensitive than anything else. And feeling grass on my feet is such a good feeling!
Short-clipped, well-maintained grass... it's like... I can't even describe it. Soo good! It's the best thing ever!
I wish that I lived in a desert, so that I could walk barefoot om sand dunes!
Just imagine massive sand dunes under your feet. Flowing, shifting.... I wish I lived in a desert!
Is it weird?!