I do not like being around my friend group anymore.
Hello.
I am a university student. I have always been an ambivert. That means I don't like being around people that much but I have a close relationship with those that I actually feel confortable being with
When I started university, some friends and I decided to make a friend group.
The truth is, I sometimes feel bad with the way they treated me. I felt confortable being around them, and that made me show them my loud personality. One of my friends that self proclaimes "my best friend" only talks with me for asking for help in some exams they needs my guidance. I do not like it, and I only enjoy being around 2 of them (1 of them being my actual best friend)
I think 3 of them hate me. 2 because I am kinda dumb and loud, and the other one because of a certain situation I had in the past with them, which led to many anxiety attacks. Nowadays, that friend is still in the group. They like everyone, so when someone asks a question, they reply with a lot of happiness, but me? When I ask something, no one replies, treat me like I'm dumb or reply with the worst mood ever. I am sensitive, so I feel I made something wrong.
Some weeks ago, I tried to leave the group. I did not announce it, I just left.
The self proclaimed best friend found me and, against my wished, added me again. I tried to explain them, but they did not understood and still added me. Today I left again, and I am hoping they finally understand I do not want to be their friend.
I don't know what to do. I am scared. I am sad. And it has my anxiety going up. I feel all of them hated me (except for those 2 friends), and I am about to explode again with another anxiety attack. What should I do?????