I need help
So, my mom says she supports me, but she is never willing to use the proper pronouns for me, she's strictly against even the concept of treatment, and worst of all, she has some weird conspiracy about trans people that it's a plot to make men weaker (it's so stupid). She says that I need to research treatment and understand the downsides too. But I HAVE researched it and I DO understand the downsides, and told her that fact. She just doesn't believe me because I don't agree with her. She has also, on more than one occasion, called it "mutilation". I also feel like I’m not good enough to be trans. I feel so insecure wearing clothes that I like because I feel like my body isn’t feminine enough. I hate looking in the mirror, because it makes me feel like I’m so far from being me. I don’t really have any close friends irl, so I feel so alone and isolated, so it feels like nobody’s there to support me.