u/CosmicArmpit

Point blank, I need the surgery. My symptoms have progressively gotten worse over the past several years, to the point that I'm inflamed and in pain more days of the month than not, my digestive system is completely fucked and I can hardly stand having sex with my partner anymore. Like it's at a critical point now and I'm worried I already waited too long. But I work physically demanding jobs, I always have in some capacity, so I haven't been able to get surgery because I don't know how long my recovery is going to be until they get in there and see how bad it is, which is not something any employer is going to take well. And even if I was allowed to take x amount of weeks off, I cannot afford to do that. It's simply not an option, I live paycheck to paycheck as it is. And that's not even counting the cost of surgery itself. Wtf am I supposed to do? I can't keep putting it off, I really can't, but I can't afford the lost money and time either. I feel like I'm in between a rock and a hard place and like I don't have a way out. Honestly not even looking for advice so much as a rant I guess. Just sad and frustrated, I regularly crash out when I think about this problem for too long lol