I know the rules of this subreddit, however I have no one to share this with. I'm feeling heartbroken, betrayed, alone and horrible right now.
Just saw my best friend (who had been my bro through everything). We shared everything. We supported each other. We would go on bike rides every other day. We would smoke up everyday. I'd helped him in his darkest of times. Even when he was crying over his girlfriend and I sat with him for everyday day in day out for weeks. Helping him workout his feelings.
And today? He and my ex girlfriend (we broke up 4 weeks ago but kept in touch. We were planning to marry each other but things didn't work out) were walking with each other, holding hands.
I was coming back from my bike ride because my best friend said he was busy( didn't really think much at the time) and then... They were there.
In our college campus.
I stopped my bike a little ahead, looked back at them, and just drove off.
Been numbing myself since 8 hours with alcohol.
He came to my hostel room to talk, I didn't say one word.
My ex girlfriend sent numerous texts, didn't reply to any of it. Though, I got to know that they've been talking long before me and my girlfriend broke up.
That just sunk deeper into heart.
I have lost all faith in friendships and relationships in one single fucking moment.
How the hell I am supposed to process this?
I am still in shock. Drunk. Paralysed thinking about that moment.
I can't accept the truth.💔