I don’t have -> I want -> I don’t have. This is what I would call the infinite loop of the beggar. :)
For the beggar, manifestation becomes a lifestyle of preparation rather than possession. You become a collector of tools. You think, "If I just find the right subliminal, or the right technique, the door will unlock."
But spoiler alert :) The lock doesn’t exist. You are so busy looking at the floor for a key that you never look up to see the door is already open.
By treating manifestation as a "process" or a "journey," you are confirming that you are not at the destination. The beggar loves the journey because the journey doesn't require the death of the old self. His mind is addicted to the concept of “soon”. (“It's coming. I can feel it getting closer”)
But “soon" is a confession of "not now." If you are waiting for a future event to make you feel fulfilled, you are ordering the law to keep that event in the future. To stop the loop, you must realize that there is no future. There is only a series of "nows." If you don't have it NOW (in consciousness), you will never have it THEN (in the 3D).
It is the primary reason why "hard workers" stay poor and "hopeful romantics" stay single. This is where the average person begins and ends. In the 3D world, "wanting" is seen as a virtue and it’s called "ambition." In the 4D world (the world of the law), wanting is an admission of separation.
You cannot want what you already have.
For ex: "I want to be rich" implies "I am currently not rich."
The result: the law reflects your “I am currently not” state, not your "rich" desire.
This is why "hard workers" often stay poor. They are working from a state of needing to get somewhere else. Their internal belief is permanently set to "the struggle," so even if they make money, they will manifest new ways to lose it or new reasons to feel stressed about it. They are loyal to the process of seeking, not the result of having.
The subconscious mind is impersonal. It does not argue, it only mirrors. If your dominant internal frequency is "I want this because I lack it," the Law must provide a reality that justifies that feeling. It hands you back more "wanting." You stay in the state of "seeking," and as long as you are seeking, you ensure you never find. If you say "I want," you are creating a "there" and a "future." But your subconscious only operates in the NOW. By putting your desire in the "want/future" category, you are effectively ordering the universe to keep it exactly one day away from you, forever.
We ve been conditioned to believe that things are "more valuable" if we suffer for them. The beggar secretly enjoys the struggle because it makes the eventual "win" feel earned. The law has no morality. It doesn't care if you earned it. It doesn't care if you've been "good." It only cares about your identity. You are so busy proving you deserve it that you’ve forgotten to simply occupy it.
There is a big responsibility in the "wish fulfilled." If you decided right now- coldly, flatly, and finally that you HAVE it, the game would be over. The tension would vanish. The "drama" of the struggle would die.
If you’ve been "affirming" for months and nothing has changed, it’s not because the law is broken. It’s because you are more loyal to the "wanting" than you are to the "having."
When you observe your reality and say, "I don’t have this," you think you are being "honest." You think you are just stating a fact. But in a universe where consciousness is the only reality, observation is an act of creation.
So, why is it so hard to stop wanting and start having? In my experience, at least, I would say because after not having something for long enough, you become addicted to the longing. Longing is safe. As long as you are "wanting" and "working on your manifestation," you don't have to face the scary responsibility of actually being the person who has it. If you have it, the game is over. If you have it, you lose the "excuse" of why your life isn't perfect yet.
Your ego loves the "I want" stage because it’s a form of procrastination. :)
You keep asking "how to get it?" because "how" is the bridge that allows you to stay on the "seeking" side of the story. The moment you decide you HAVE it, the bridge collapses, and you are forced to stand in the reality of your choice.
Look at it this way. When you are in the I don't have\\I want loop, you are using willpower. You are trying to "force" the mirror to change. But have you ever tried to force a mirror to show you a smile when you are scowling? It’s impossible. You can scream at the glass, you can break the glass but it will still show you a scowl. The decision is simply the act of smiling.
Once you smile, you don't "check" the mirror to see if it’s smiling back. You know it is, because it’s a mirror.
If you have to check, you’ve stopped smiling to look, and now the mirror is showing you "a person checking to see if they’re smiling."
The beggar is also a “checker." They affirm for ten minutes, then look at the 3D to see if it worked. If you were actually the person who had the desire, you wouldn't be checking to see if you have it.
The fact that you are looking for evidence is the evidence that you don't believe you have it. You are hypnotized by the mirror. You are waiting for the reflection to smile first.
“But my reality doesn’t show it yet.” Of course it doesn’t. Reality is delayed. It’s an echo. It’s showing you what you were\*,\* not what you are becoming\*.\* If you keep using the 3D as proof of what’s true, you will always be one step behind yourself. You will always go back into “I don’t have,” because you’re asking the past to confirm your new identity. It can’t and it never will. It hasn’t caught up yet.
Also, if you are trying to "ignore" circumstances while still believing they are "real" and "nasty," you’ve already lost. You’re trying to look away from a monster while still believing the monster can eat you. Everything you see in the 3D is "pushed out" consciousness. If a circumstance is "bad," it is simply the feedback of a previous state of being. Its is an echo.
The 3D world is essentially a test of your loyalty. It’s going to "check in" to see if you actually believe your new assumption. When a "nasty" circumstance hits, the 3D is asking: "Are you still the person who has this, or are you going to go back to being the person who wants it?"
The moment you react emotionally to a negative circumstance with fear, panic, or "How could this happen?" you have re infected yourself with the old state. You have stepped out of the "I HAVE" and back into the "I LACK."
Act with surety. Surety means looking at a "bad" event and refusing to give it a meaning that contradicts your end. "Nothing means anything except the meaning I give it. Therefore, even this 'mess” is somehow the shortest path to my fulfillment."
The moment you say "I want," you create a gap. You are officially declaring separation between "Me" and "My desire." You have placed your desire in a hypothetical future, which means you have effectively banned it from your present. The thirst for the result is the only thing keeping you in the desert.
The more you look for the "how," the more you prove you don't have the "what."
You are trying to use the law to get something, not realizing that the law only EVER gives you who you ARE.
You must take the desire out of the "I would like to have" category and put it into the "I am currently experiencing" category.
If someone were to offer you a new "technique" to get your desire, and you actually feel like you need it, you haven't decided yet. If you had decided, you would look at the technique and think, "Why would I do that? I already have it."