u/Corneredstone-09

I'm the loyal type of person in friendship and in a relationship. I've only been in one official relationship and I tried freaking hard to keep it for a long time, but that person turned out to be a manipulative b.

I was traumatized so badly, it took me nearly 2yrs to get over it. Aftr that I lost my trust in love.

Then I met another person and that person was going through a rough patch, I was there fr them. I respected the hardwork and grit, also became very close. So I generally thought we had something. But the person never defined our relationship.

Then the person became a completely different person after they got their life together.I guess they just used me as a trauma dump. Both of them got married aftr that nd apparently they're comparing their respective partners to me, as I was such a good person (I'm nt sure if it's true bt I just learnt it from someone)

If I'm such a good person then why not me ?

Do I not have a shot in love marriage? Is arranged marriage the thing for me?

Idk the particular name of this variety of caladium, as I got the root from a friend and she didn't know either.

I have had this plant for a yr and now it is blooming.

Hope it's a good indication.

33F, what are the chances of marriage of this chart? If it happens, how will it be?

I've been preparing for govt job for 3-4 yrs. I've always been a good student and I'm willing to work hard for my goals. But I'm always missing the mark by 2-3 numbers and it's getting exhausting. If there was a lot of difference I'd acknowledge that I'm not capable enough and quit it. But it's always very small marking and I'm starting to believe that something in my chart is making it happen. I've already invested a lot of time and sacrificed a lot of my life for this. What is the cause of this? Can you suggest some remedies?