Wanted to talk about what's happened since I made this post because my brain is really full right now and I need to empty it to get some work done.
On Sunday I travelled back to the city where I attend uni. My family is from a rural area and owns a shitty 2 bedroom that I'm sharing with a friend right now in said city. This is basically my paren't investment property bought with the money from when my Grandma passed.
Once I got there I broke down everything that had been going on with my roommate as the last week I was back home for a milestone party. She was the final push I needed to message my head of course about the situation who let's just call Ms.
I had sort of convinced myself it wasn't a big deal, that I was blowing it out of proportion and was too in my head about the whole thing. Having people in my life and a couple of commenters here helped a lot to actually convince me I needed to bring this to her.
It takes an hour to travel in to where my classes are in the city, so when I got on the tram ay 7:30am on a Monday and emailed my teacher you can imagine I wasn't expecting her to respond within 5 minuets. I had emailed her telling her that I wanted to talk and if she would be on campus. She said no because she was home with two sick kids but was good to have an online meeting at 12:30 after my class ended.
With that penciled in I started panic texting one of my classmates. They were understanding and offered to sit with me through the meeting which I accepted.
Class was actually useless that day. Final day on campus and he wanted to put our projects up on the nice projector on campus and see how they looked. Of course we had to spend 20 minuets watching a random documentary before he did that. He then did not give anyone any substantial feedback and jumped on the back of what other people were saying the whole time. He has been doing this the whole time we've had him.
I wanted other eyes on my work giving me feedback, and he at not point gave that to me. Accept very surface level things. He never commented on my story, the pacing, or the overall tone of my work. My film is atmospheric and I really needed someone to say something about it to feel confident in what I was doing.
I just wanted him to actually look at all of our work and give us good feedback on it. None of us felt like he was giving us anything adequate in that department. Especially when last Friday when we got into a meeting that I thought was going to be looking at my project in depth finally and he ended up telling me I was a people pleaser and to stop doing that.
So after that because for some of us this was just our last class in the course period we went and got lunch at a cafe up the road. I had to back quick to be there in time for my meeting with Ms. H so it was a quick goodbye and rushed my way back to the room. We had access to it until campus closed.
She's late to the meeting because the uni is reformatting a bunch of stuff and ended up having to call me on the phone. I tell her what was going on with the lecturer and she was horrified. Some o my other classmates made their way back in and the person I panicked texted earlier sat next to me and was just overall very encouraging of me talking about this will her. They could also kind of hear what Ms. H was saying.
Ms. H asked what she could do to help us in the short term while she figured out what she could do in the long run. I brought up the lack of feedback and said it would be nice to have a way to get something better somehow. My classmates agreed and I put my phone on speaker so we could all talk to her about it.
She offered for us to email her our work and she would go over it. I have since done that and gotten an actual in depth look at my work and she also encouraged me to send my work to one of the other lectures so she could look at the technical animation stuff better then she can.
All in all I feel better. I feel supported and like something is being done about the lackluster experience I've had this tri and an overstepping lecturer. It feels nice. And my head feels a lot better so I'm gonna go do my work. Thank you for reading