I wanted a mastectomy and hysterectomy but I was a woman and that wasn't an option. People were dismissive and condescending. So I transitioned and my work paid for it and it was a fast streamlined process where everyone told me how brave I was and how much they supported me.
I wanted "smaller boobies" for years. I was an "a" by 11 and was eventually "c." That may not sound a lot but they were big on my frame. They hurt, I couldn't run or rock clim anymore or do my job without them getting in the way. People always looked at them and the wrong kind of people were attracted to me from 11 onwards. I hated them and was very unhappy. I couldn't make connections with other people and no one took me seriously. I would bind my chest and wear jackets in the summer and it was sometimes dangerous in the heat. My boss and coworkers would encourage me to take my jacket off and told me it was safe, but then they just stared and gave me unwanted attention.
I also had painful periods, like extreme but no one took me seriously. I couldn't work or function at all and they'd last all week. I couldn't maintain a relationship. Forget going to school, I had to drop out because the pain was so bad and I was so far behind they tried to put me in sped. I tried to ask for a hysterectomy but they were instantly dismissive and said I would need to have kids first.
Finally I was done with life and had no hope. But before all that I tried transitioning. Before surgery they required therapy, cutting off my hair, using the men's restroom, and taking testosterone. Once my transition was approved getting surgery was a streamline process and they even pressured me to get more surgeries "down there" that I didn't want, I'm happy I just stuck with the mastectomy and hysterectomy.
Now that I've had my mastectomy and hysterectomy I'm finally happy and well adjusted. I can run and climb and am free to go outdoors in the summer with comfort. I can work and go to school with no problems and have the respect of my peers. I found an amazing man who loves me for who I am and am now an active member of my community.
Now that I've had my hysterectomy I am finally pain free and the surgeon said by the state of my uterus I should have had a hysto long before. I can go to school and am doing well now. I will have my associates next year!
I still need the testosterone so I don't go into menopause, and I'm afraid of taking female hormones and the pain coming back or returning to the place where I was treated poorly. I spoke to a doctor about de-transitioning but she looked at me like I was disgusting and getting a referral for an endocrinologist for that reason was difficult. When I changed my mind I was able to get a referral for an endocrinologist for my testosterone within a month with no problems. I pass as male now and even have a beard and hair loss. Moved to another state and no one knows I'm trans until I tell them and then they are genuinely shocked. I only tell friends. I live in a rural Republican area so people aren't really looking for it either and only think trans people look like men in dresses.
I have nothing against transgender people and I support them, but the way women are treated is insane and needs to change.