u/ControlThat8187

I'm in a mental health housing program and I'm trying to find housing for afterwards I jsut went into a hud adjacent office for an interview and it was a group interview, I was shaking like I was on drugs but that's my fucking social anxiety. I also stuck out like a sore thumb, I try to blend in and appear normal to others but it's impossible. It fucking sucks. I know I ain't getting any housing through them now because the way they fuckling judged me when I went there.

I'm not like bouncing off the walls crazy, just fucking weird and people notice it. It's like they don't want me to be apart of their system, like they want me to be homeless and to die.

What's the pop like? The thing that made turtle and nost and the others I missed is that they had huge populations which made the world feel alive.

I can't find anything telling me the population of Kronos

Can't seem to find an answer anywhere

The flat damage from the war travelers is nice, but I'm looking at the deadly strike from gore riders. Is it worth capping out DS? Would it out perform the flat damage?

I'm a multishot bowazon btw

I can't connect any blutooth peripherials to my PC. If I put the device directly ontop of my PC case, it detects it, but it loses the signal almost immediately.

I've tried multitudes of different software and drivers. I don't understand why the performance is so poor. My 50$ cheap ass smart phone from 3 years ago connects to my blutooth speaker flawlessly from across the house.

Any ideas?

I'm trying to find a psych that specializes in this disease and I can't seem to find one. If I call up the psych centers in my town they tell me they don't have any experience with schizoaffective/schizophrenia disorders and refer me to places that also don't have experience, it's like none of them want to deal with schizo people

I have medicare and just want to telehealth if possible/get my meds mailed to me, does anyone have a recommendation for any of these services?

To be blunt, I'm schizoaffective and I am extremely paranoid. It's possible it's just a delusion but things have been happening that make no sense.

I have a case manager that hates my guts, she actively got in the way of me getting benefits, takes pictures of my apartment when she comes over unannounced, she spies on me, she controls the people around me. I can't even speak directly to my land lord anymore because it has to go through her. I got approved after 3+ years of being homeless, I literally just got approved 2 months ago.

My aide contacted her to see what her problem was and now my aide is discontinuing services with me, which tells me she flipped my aide. I don't know what she's telling these people, it's fucking strange.

It's like she has a vendetta against me for some reason, and I hate it. She's ruining every aspect of my life. It's like she wants me homeless again or dead. I don't know what to do.

Beyond that, I started noticing cars that are out of place at my apartment, they pull up and sit there in their car(s) and just watch.

I haven't left my apartment in quite some time until today, I think in over a month, I went to get my meds refilled a few blocks away at walgreens, I walked because I can't drive.

Anyways, this car, I'm pretty sure followed me, cause it was gone when I came back then pulled up as I was arriving back at my apartment.

I'm just really tired, I hate this shit, I look out my windows like 50 times a day and see them sitting there watching. There is no respite.

It's so distressing I WANT to go live on the street again, dealing with this in addition to mental illness is really fucking me up.

I've been homeless most my life, never had a stable place to stay. I'm afraid to spend any money, I think I have a lot of unresolved trauma. It feels like I'm just going to be homeless again so it doesn't matter what I do. I got approved for disability, I thought that would make things better but it's only led to me being fearful that I'll lose it if I try and be normal.

I'm afraid to spend money on things I need like clothes, because I always end up having to leave my belongings behind. So in my mind it doesn't matter if I have any possessions.

It's not a lot of money at all either, I just don't know what to use it for. I distill everything down into basics. Why would I need a bunch of new clothes? I don't leave the house, the only reason I'd want clothes is to appear normal, when I am not normal, infact society has rejected me at every turn, yet I still yearn to feel normal and try to make it seem like I'm a normal person, but it causes immense anxiety and fear that I'll be found out and people will find out that I'm nuts.