I’m so tired.
This year I pushed myself hard to get a competitive average — went from a 90 to a 94. I know it’s not a “high 90,” but I genuinely gave it everything. Countless hours, constant stress, recalculating every mark, checking OUAC, reading Reddit posts, refreshing spreadsheets… just always thinking about grades.
For months, I was basically counting down my life, week by week: midterms, semester end, offer rounds. Always waiting for the next thing.When midterms were finally uploaded and I recalculated my average, I actually felt proud of myself for the first time. And I let myself admit that.But now that things have slowed down a bit, it’s hitting me differently. I’m exhausted. Like, properly burnt out. And I’m starting to realize how much of my life has been consumed by chasing perfection.Lately I’ve been thinking… life has to be more than just grades.
Honestly, I just need a break. I catch myself daydreaming about going on vacation and just not thinking about any of this for a while.
Has anyone else felt this way after pushing themselves all year?