Am I feeling limerance for this guy over this one interaction? I feel like I’m going insane
This is half vent half am I crazy/delusional. I’m also new to this sub/the idea of limerance so any help would be appreciated! Very long post ahead.
So for context I like to talk to strangers/fellow creatives at the park. I ran into a photographer guy a couple month back and we connected, and I ran into him again yesterday. We decided to shoot photos and it eventually devolved into a deep conversation, the best conversation in a long time.
He told me that he recently got out of a 3 year relationship and it was supposed to be their anniversary today. I related to him on my breakup last year. We ended up talking about a lot of deep topics such as change or life. He talked about how he met his ex through his camera and documented all their years together but she didn’t like the side of him that was silly or a yapper or felt like his vids were cringe etc. we both bonded over a ldr as well as our exes not matching our energy/silly side and being STEM people instead of creatives which we related more to. At some points of the convo he teared up when I said I’m sure she wants you to be happy too and when I talked about how there weren’t bad people just the wrong people.
At some point he looked me in the eyes and said “I can tell that you’re so kind” and I choked up and said that’s all I ever strive to be. We then talked about modern life and how we both want to connect with strangers and experience humanity through like photography or street interviews/inspirational videos. He is the ONLY person I met so far who shared this strange goal of mine. He said “there’s not many people like you in the world…well like us.” I hugged him like twice. At some point he said I wish I went to (the name of my university) but here I am. I also said that I wanted to be a consultant and he mentioned his best friend was a consultant then said “is this destiny? I think it might be.”
It was cold as shit but time just flew by and we spent like 90 minutes just talking. Maybe I’m delusional but the way we looked at each other sometimes with such emotion it just felt like a movie idk. There hasn’t been someone who just spoke to my soul like this in so long I don’t know what to do. Everything he said I could not only empathize with but feel myself, and all the qualities we said our partners didnt like were ones that we both shared.
So, what’s the problem? Besides that he’s freshly out of a 3 year relationship, he’s 26 and I’m 19. Yes I know it sounds really bad, which is also why I hate myself for how I’m feeling rn 😭. I can’t get him out of my head and feel this nagging feeling that I’ll regret it if I don’t try.