Feeling hopeless with the APCSA exam in two days
I'm a senior in high school and am a very techy person. At school I'm known as the "tech guy". I am the head of the student IT team and am so good at what I do my high school hires me in the summers for tech work. I've wanted to code for yeeears and have been trying to learn Java since I was 12 by teaching my self plus some summer classes but with no success. I decided to take AP comp sci this year in hopes to finally get a grasp on coding but right now they are shattered. Throughout this year I've consistently scored the class low on evrey unit test. I have to have extra help on evrey assignment by either my teacher or my classmates who are getting the class very easily and finish the work on average 30mins before me. I've had a multitude of one on one sessions with my teacher after school and during my free period as I almost never finish the classwork before class ends. Most recently I was stuck on a warmup problem for almost two weeks untill finally I was able to figure it out. This has all culminated when we had a AP exam MCQ practice today where I felt ashamed as I was basically guessing questions I felt I should have known easily, even after strategys like tracing them out on paper and writing out pseudo code. I don't know why I am having such a hard time with coding, I know I have a hard time thinking outside the box and thinking abstractly but I don't know why this class is going this bad. I've always wanted to code, it's been the one thing technology wise I couldn't do, I've been studying for hours on end for the exam in 2 days and it all just feels pointless and I feel like it's not even doing anything at this rate. I don't know if anyone else has ever had this experience but I just needed to rant this out. Sorry everyone