I kinda had the feeling that sooner or later this was bound to happen, and it finally did.
My dad goes "is saal cat ache se de, ho gaya kisi badhiya college mein to theek hai warna kahi bhi admission le, har saal aise hi thodi deta rahega"
It's gonna be my 2nd attempt btw, got done with my ug a few months ago. Then he says something weird like "upsc thodi hai ki 6-7 saal dete rahe, usme to ye bhi rehta hai ki ias ips to banenge" It has been continuously drilled in my head ,by my family, how superior government jobs are. I'm aware of the fact that no matter what I do, I will never be able to come close to a upsc, cgl, cds dude because they're just so much better than anyone else in this country. Anyway sorry for the tangent
I'm gnem 7/7/7, and I'm fully aware of my situation. I've done a lot of research on this and I know what to expect from this exam.
My point is that it's just so futile to even try to get selected like this. All I want is a fair shot at MDI, IIFT, XL and FMS but with that profile and no work experience, its simply not possible. And the thing is, I've explained the selection process to him a couple of times now and its pointless to go over it again if he just doesn't get it/don't believe me.
I just want to sit in the interviews with ideal work ex, for my own peace of mind because if I don't, this shit would eat me alive and I would keep thinking about "ek proper attempt deta to shayad ho jata"
I've read so many posts about female candidates not being able to give cat again but now I actually know what it feels like