My psychiatrist who I have been seeing for over 7 years has never seen anyone like me. Psychomotor agitation and vocal tics she says. I'm on Klonipin.
I think maybe I'm bipolar because this doesn't feel right.
Anyone else?
I am diagnosed with major Depressive disorder and generalized anxiety disorder, ADHD. Etc
But, I may have had hypomanic episodes. I did get into a fight with my grown daughters and they both thought I was manic once. But I was also very sad. But I think I was probably manic but I blamed it on PMDD
But months ago I started pacing and jumping and talking out loud. My anxiety is severe, I'm not sleeping much. (This all started after surgical menapause) And I just get hysterical sometimes. I'm having conversations out loud and just saying weird stuff. My anxiety is out of control. I feel scared of everything.
My mother was and my brother is bipolar but very classic. They go manic in big, classic ways.
It's humiliating me and I have to stop this. I feel like maybe it's a mixed state. My Psychiatrist mentioned Depakote.
I'm also looping thoughts, can't concentrate. I'm home all day doing this for hours. Pacing, jumping, feeling very irritated but also very sad.
I feel like the only person. Even if I manage to do something I'm talking out loud. But it stops at night. My Psychiatrist says it's Psychomotor agitation. I also am doing repetitive vocal tics when people are around. I can control it sometimes but I rarely sit down and I move from one foot to the other. Rock back and forth etc.
I thought I was cured a couple times when I left the house for a couple days...
Am I the only one? I'm not spending money, I feel horrible about myself. But this has to stop it's driving me crazy. I also have terrible Agoraphobia that's new. I had it a little bit but now I don't want to go anywhere.
Please tell me Depakote will help and I'm not the only one.
It makes no sense to get 2 hours of sleep and run, pace and talk till my voice is hoarse. My brain thinks everything is an emergency. I can't concentrate I'm so self absorbed with "getting better". I'm calling my husband 10x a day.
Anyway please positive stories. No Depakote horror stories.
Feels like a mixed episode I feel afraid all the time or I've read about Dysphoric mania. I can't sleep! Nothing is reliabley helping me sleep! Please