u/Conscious_Gazelle_83

Just curious, a former SM asked for my resume and passed it to a partner he worked closely with in the office of my current city. I'm assuming nothing happens if the partner isn't interested in the resume or thinks it's subpar? I had some complications (brother passing away and offer being rescinded after I already moved) so I have some gaps that are explained on my resume but I am also aware it looks messier than the average person. Had a 3.7 GPA and MIS major at a target school for undergrad, also have been out of school for a little over 2 years working in supply chain/logistics and looking to pivot into PA.

Thanks.

This will be quite long so I appreciate anyone who's willing to understand my story.

Honestly this is so shameful and embarrassing to reflect back on, but I am still unable to get over being terminated that long ago and I think it'd help to write it out.

I was a college hire L4 Area Manager and I loved the role, contrary to many saying they hate it. I loved working with the associates, jumping in the fire so-to-speak, I didn't mind the long hours, I loved doing something that I felt made an impact. I put everything into my work. Many of the associates told me how much they appreciated someone that actually cared about them as people with stories, not just tools. I was terminated 3 months after starting.

I want to give some background on myself which will be relevant, I came from a broken home and my father was abusive. He beat my mother, brother and I growing up and at an early age, around ~13, I started drinking which led to abusing hard drugs around 16. I had a very troubled upbringing full of distrust. I was addicted to substances on and off until 23, after my termination, when I finally committed to complete sobriety for life. I just didn't come from a great background and saw many of my old friends were killed or incarcerated.

I tried to turn my life around by going to community college at 18, then transferring to a private business school with a full-ride scholarship. I graduated with honors then received the L4 AM offer. I thought this way a new beginning. I was getting paid decently, I loved the work, but there was one thing I didn't get over, which was my substance addiction, especially after my brother passed away around that time. I was offered by another manager if I wanted to smoke cannabis, and that led to nicotine and other substances again. As a result, I vaped nicotine inside the FC (I know, I was a moron, an idiot and I hate myself for it) and I already had another manager who I was told had a vendetta against me because of me being well-regarded quickly by senior management and the associates. She was known to not do her work on-time and all around not a great leader, either way, I still gave her ammunition by vaping and being an idiot, so it's completely my fault, not hers.

She went around asking associates if there's anything she could add in a case against me. They all told me that. I didn't think much of it until I was called by HR and Loss Prevention for an investigation which I told them the truth. Funny enough, the Loss Prevention site leader, I am still connected with today and he even apologized that I ended up getting terminated, knowing I tried my best to be a good person, I was just too weak to deal with my issues in a healthy manner. Anyways, 10 months later after interviewing with Goldman Sachs (made it to the Superday twice but rejected), and healing, confronting all the pain I used to run away from, I landed a contract role with Meta in low-level logistics and worked that for 10 months until I landed a full-time offer with the Federal government, but was rescinded due to budget cuts after I already moved and resigned.

There's times where I understand if it wasn't for the termination, I wouldn't have grown as much as I have (I've been nearly 2 years sober ever since, not a drop of alcohol either) and I've added many healthy habits into my life (meditation, spirituality, relationship building, natural supplements, self-improvement), but now that I'm alone in an expensive city I can't help but feel the loss of Amazon. I know everyone will say Amazon is cutthroat but I did not mind the long hours or the extreme pressure. I love working, it gives me purpose. I love the global impact that Amazon has. I see others in my onboarding doing well at Amazon, some people transferring to corporate roles making amazing money and benefits, improving their resume while I'm here, lost, broken, and with no job prospects. And they deserve it, because they weren't weak like me.

If only I was strong enough to be sober, if only I wasn't so damn weak, I would still be at Amazon and doing the same. It was my dream to work for Amazon as a PM, business analyst, or in supply chain. It just hurts seeing what I could've had if I was just better. I take responsibility for all my mistakes, but it just hurts thinking of what could've been. A company like Amazon on your resume, great money, amazing learning opportunities, I threw that all away. Now I'm considering a masters because I don't know what else to do. I do see this as an extremely painful - but necessary event because of what I lost, I have never thought about using substances or going down that road again.

If you read all this, then I really appreciate you. This was from my heart.

This will be quite long so I appreciate anyone who's willing to understand my story.

Honestly this is so shameful and embarrassing to reflect back on, but I am still unable to get over being terminated that long ago and I think it'd help to write it out.

I was a college hire L4 AM and I loved the role, contrary to many saying they hate it. I loved working with the associates, jumping in the fire so-to-speak, I didn't mind the long hours, I loved doing something that I felt made an impact. I put everything into my work. Many of the associates told me how much they appreciated someone that actually cared about them as people with stories, not just tools. I was terminated 3 months after starting.

I want to give some background on myself which will be relevant, I came from a broken home and my father was abusive. He beat my mother, brother and I growing up and at an early age, around ~13, I started drinking which led to abusing hard drugs around 16. I had a very troubled upbringing full of distrust. I was addicted to substances on and off until 23, after my termination, when I finally committed to complete sobriety for life. I just didn't come from a great background and saw many of my old friends were killed or incarcerated.

I tried to turn my life around by going to community college at 18, then transferring to a private business school with a full-ride scholarship. I graduated with honors then received the L4 AM offer. I thought this way a new beginning. I was getting paid decently, I loved the work, but there was one thing I didn't get over, which was my substance addiction, especially after my brother passed away around that time. I was offered by another manager if I wanted to smoke cannabis, and that led to nicotine and other substances again. As a result, I vaped nicotine inside the FC (I know, I was a moron, an idiot and I hate myself for it) and I already had another manager who I was told had a vendetta against me because of me being well-regarded quickly by senior management and the associates. She was known to not do her work on-time and all around not a great leader, either way, I still gave her ammunition by vaping and being an idiot, so it's completely my fault, not hers.

She went around asking associates if there's anything she could add in a case against me. They all told me that. I didn't think much of it until I was called by HR and Loss Prevention for an investigation which I told them the truth. Funny enough, the Loss Prevention site leader, I am still connected with today and he even apologized that I ended up getting terminated, knowing I tried my best to be a good person, I was just too weak to deal with my issues in a healthy manner. Anyways, 10 months later after interviewing with Goldman Sachs (made it to the Superday twice but rejected), and healing, confronting all the pain I used to run away from, I landed a contract role with Meta in low-level logistics and worked that for 10 months until I landed a full-time offer with the Federal government, but was rescinded due to budget cuts after I already moved and resigned.

There's times where I understand if it wasn't for the termination, I wouldn't have grown as much as I have (I've been nearly 2 years sober ever since, not a drop of alcohol either) and I've added many healthy habits into my life (meditation, spirituality, relationship building, natural supplements, self-improvement), but now that I'm alone in an expensive city I can't help but feel the loss of Amazon. I know everyone will say Amazon is cutthroat but I did not mind the long hours or the extreme pressure. I love working, it gives me purpose. I love the global impact that Amazon has. I see others in my onboarding doing well at Amazon, some people transferring to corporate roles making amazing money and benefits, improving their resume while I'm here, lost, broken, and with no job prospects. And they deserve it, because they weren't weak like me.

If only I was strong enough to be sober, if only I wasn't so damn weak, I would still be at Amazon and doing the same. It was my dream to work for Amazon as a PM, business analyst, or in supply chain. It just hurts seeing what I could've had if I was just better. I take responsibility for all my mistakes, but it just hurts thinking of what could've been. A company like Amazon on your resume, great money, amazing learning opportunities, I threw that all away. Now I'm considering a masters because I don't know what else to do. I do see this as an extremely painful - but necessary event because of what I lost, I have never thought about using substances or going down that road again.

If you read all this, then I really appreciate you. This was from my heart.

I'm currently a little over 2 years out of my undergrad at a target school in CA, graduated with a MIS degree and 3.7 GPA. I've been wanting to pivot into the GRC / IT Audit field for quite some time now, as I do not quite enjoy logistics and supply chain. Right out of college, I worked in operations management for a FAANG company until my brother's health began deteriorating and I resigned to take care of him. He passed away the same year, 10 months later I worked a contract role at another FAANG working in logistics for about 10 months until I resigned for a federal job offer that was rescinded after I already moved.

I'm in a new city, I do have savings, but I wanted to get all of your ideas, because I'm completely lost. I know that Big 4 firms typically recruit one year out and prioritize new grads for entry level roles, but so many IT Audit positions seem to exclusively be in PA and then you can use that experience for more GRC roles. I was thinking of getting a Masters in Accounting to supplement my MIS degree and get back into the recruiting pipeline but unfortunately I already missed the deadline this fall (didn't think about it until this week) for a school in my area. I also thought of taking the CISA but I don't have any work experience in the field to get certified.

I would appreciate anyone's thoughts or tips. I'm quite concerned about my career trajectory since I have gaps and I've had alot on my plate these past few years. Thank you.