u/Conscious_Employ_932

i have been doing this neet for 3 years because of my parents pressure . after my 2nd attempt when i told them i want to pursue something different . they just said what will you do? you will waste your future. though my mother was a little supported of me my father is fixed me being a doctor when my mom told him that i wanna pursue other thing he just said to my mom "then don't come to me crying when he becomes a failure or doesn't do well in life" so my mother took his side too . i am 21 now i'm done i am physically and mentally exhausted i can't even pick up a book now , my social life is fucked because of the 3 year of isolation , i got fucking skinny when i said them can i just join a gym. i will do both study and gym and they said no it will distract you . i got really depressed in like middle of the year and got into bad habits because of it , my life is fucked. and now when neet is like 5 days away i have not prepared .i couldn't do it . i just wanna disappear man, its fucking horrible. what should i do? (sorry for the ranting guys)