Advice appreciated
Hi all. I’m gonna share a short version of my story and I’m in need of some advice.
I’m 21, I started gambling at 18 at a casino close to home. Of course like all stories it was a fun thing to do with buddies. After a while we were going a lot and I’d spend 1-200. Anyways ended up winning 7k one night on slots. God I wish I didn’t. After that it became an every weekend deal. Progress 2 years, blowing whole paychecks, maxxing credit cards out, getting loans. It became an escape. But no one knew that, no one does either still.
Now 21, online gambling has ruined me. I make decent money for my age, $8k give or take a month. I probably have about 15k or so in loans and money I owe my gpa for “broken down truck”. No it wasn’t broken I overdrafted ny acct at the casino.
Anyway. I’m in a position I ca easily pay off my debts, I have about 3k in bills a month. But I still live paycheck to paycheck. I thought it was my spending, ( shopping ect. )
It’s the online gambling shit. I can’t get over it, I delete them, redownload them 4 days later, delete them. I’ve installed gamban but that’s 3 clicks away from removing.
I think my problem is I want the debt gone now, I’ve completely trashed my credit. Collections, cards whatever. But I believe it’s me wanting it gone now. I have a drawn plan showing how I could pay back everything and easily afford it whilst saving money. But I fucking can’t. What is it? I feel like a damn crack feign. I’d like some advice if anyone has had a similar situation. Thanks in advance