u/Conscious-Room9016

Tonight i regressed (6 years when little) with my cg around and i got frustrated over a game we were playing together. i threw a fit and whined a lot and i told my cg (also my boyfriend) the reason i was upset was bc he was doing so much better and was way ahead of me. he knows i dont like feeling left behind. in a way it lightly triggers abandonment issues. i prefer to progress at a similar rate, but his progress just kept going further and further, i was stressing out. it escalated a while later and now hes telling me “i bet you use ‘regression’ as a way to be rude and mean” but its nearly the equivalent of a toddler’s whining fit. im not trying to be rude on purpose but when my emotions make me feel really upset i do get rude. but i didnt say anything too bad insulting, i just said “i dont like you!” in a whiny voice hoping he would maybe try to comfort me, but he didnt. i feel offended he tried to say my regression is an excuse to act rudely. ive rarely thrown fits like this while regressing. im usually with my paci and calm. in the past hes also told me “i bet you flex that you have bpd” but i just ignored it. its starting to make me feel uncomfortable now though, because it looks like he sees my safe space as simply a means of acting out. how can something to deep and important to me be seen as only… that? idk maybe theres a side that i dont understand. but i am really upset and im crying over what he told me.