Being an ugly woman feels like being a broken, cheaply made appliance that people only purchase since they can’t afford other options
I wish the desire to be chosen for who I am would go away. I some times wish that I could speed up my expiration so I can be disliked for being old instead of ugly.
The only ones who choose me are my pets who can’t comprehend ugliness and prettiness in the way human beings can. They love me based on my actions in a way that no one else can. I’m blessed to have them, but I feel like I’ve missed out on familial love, platonic love, and romantic love because of the way I look. My parents only liked me when I was a kid and underweight. I think some of my friends see me as a good person to stand next to since they look better in comparison. I’ve never even held hands with someone romantically and I’m only a few years away from my mid twenties.
Instead of being a malfunctioning object, I wish I could be a house cat with a caring owner. Caring pet owners love their pets even if they age and give them affection even when their body is ugly their face is scarred and deformed. I know I will love mine no matter what happens and find them cute under any circumstances.