I’m scared
I’m terrified I don’t have the maternal instinct in me… all my friends have kids or are trying. I am not pregnant at this time, and have had a miscarriage years ago… however the pregnancy itself was unexpected and I was young and unprepared so I felt some part of relief. Yes, I’ve teared up here and there about it, but it just feels different.
I’m petrified that I’m missing “that”, the desire to be a mom and make a child my world. I think babies are cute and I would love to have a family. But I’ve watched all of my friends have almost this revolutionary change- and they all say it’s the greatest thing that ever happened to them, etc… and I don’t feel like I could ever feel that way… today is mothers days and with every encouraging and supportive Mother’s Day text I sent (because seriously they all are incredible moms on their own way!) they all responded back with something about how they couldn’t wait till it was me, or one day I’m going to be such a great mom, etc. and I’m scared that that is just simply not the case. Has anyone else felt this way?