I’ve been the “prodigal daughter” of my family now for about a year, and I feel so lost.
For context, I started dating a man in 2023. Things were great, he claimed to be a Christian and even acted like one in the beginning. Then about a year or so in his mask started to slip, and I this point I signed a lease to live with him. (I was super poor at the time and was embarrassed and didn’t tell my family. Living with him seemed like an ok option at the time.) well here we are living together and I’m miserable. He’s not kind and treats me poorly, but financially I’m still in a spot where I can’t leave, but I also do love and care about him. My family is always sending me scripture and devotionals and I appreciate them. They crack open my heart and make me cry. I love the Lord. I do. I know I’m in a situation I never should’ve been in the first place, but I pray about it and I feel like God is silent. I feel like He ignores me. My boyfriend claims he is going to move to another state but he’s made no effort to do so. I have been counting on that for a while now but he seems to be all talk. I feel like if he were to move away it would be the best as I have no intention of going with him. But how do I navigate this spot I’m in? I’m trying to save money to get out, but I’m also mentally so tired with feeling like God is ignoring me.