Advise
Hello! its very nice to mee you all, i wanted to share my experience cause im still digesting some stuff and i was wondering if i could have some advise from you guys and galls.
In my life i dated two guys the first started so well or thats what i thought but he turned out to be a pig. All he wanted was to go to motels, and the sex with him was disgusting and I regretted it. He pressured me to have sex, and I pretended to enjoy it because I didn't. He didn't even read the restaurant, I tried being a supportive girlfriend, getting him to teraphy cause he had daddy issues, i bought him videogames, a light sable, roses took him out to meet people of similar interest to his, tried to get allong with his family and in return nothing i barelly got a get well soon when i was sick not once did he ever try to understand what i liked in regards to hoobies nor did he put in the effort, he dumped me in the middle of a cafeteria like didnt even have the disency to do it in private. And even after i was heartbroken he talked bad behind my back while i was still moruning the realtionship like really bad laughting about me and all.
After a year of healing I meet another guy older than me by a lot but it was ah amaizing, He loved animals, traveled abroad, studied gastronomy and psychology, working as a psychologist. He liked to read fantasy, Harry Potter and Game of Thrones, The Hunger Games, and horror movies too. He was a gentleman and didn't pressure me to have sex. He made me feel like I finally had someone to talk to, someone who listened to me, and he liked me for being creative and kind. But even though we hit it off well he didnt never wanna put a lable and it had been some moths but i was to scared to ask so it wouldnt break like the last time, in the end he broke it off cause i was to young.
I feel like i repressed all of that for quite some time and now its starting to creep back in, but i feel just so sad cause it feels so hard finding someone who connects with me in an emotional and intellectual level, someone kind, who is adverturous but not in the drugs and parties nor drinking way since i dont like that way, someone who shares my love for fantazi and reading and movies but also music taste, someone who likes travel cause ive travel a lot but is also responsible like i am and that understands the value of mental healt, selfwork and emotional maturity.
So yeah thats my story, i was hoping i could have some advise, hoenstly ive felt like i didnt have anyone to talk to about this stuff and i think i repressed it for so long and now ive had time to unwind its all comming back to me