u/ConfidentArachnid671

Basically on a school trip to Iceland I (16m) ended up rooming with a friend with a friend of mine (16m) who I think I like, for 8 whole days. I’ve known him for years and wanted to come out to him as Bi on the trip in person since he moved out of state before this school year (he was still able to come on the trip since he already paid), but I couldn’t get my self to do it. I feel really stupid about this because they are literally gay and I know that I could tell them and they would accept me immediately, but even knowing that every time I’ve tried I couldn’t do it. That was all until the final night of the trip where before I got in bed I found the courage and finally told them “I’m Bi”. BUT THEN IT TURNED OUT THAT THEY WERE ASLEEP THE WHOLE TIME. After that I was never able to say it again for the rest of the trip. I can’t stop thinking about it, but I can’t tell anyone about it because I’m still in the closet. They were the first person I’ve ever told and they don’t even remember. Unfortunately me and him have barely talked since then. I don’t care whether he likes, or would have I just wish that he could’ve heard me because now I feel so much more alone, like I’ve taken a step back. I thought that if I could tell one person the truth, if I could be honest to one person then all the rest would be easier but now I feel like it’s all so much harder.

And also this not the original version of the post because when I was writing the original, my phone died and the draft didn’t save so I had to remake all of this now I’m tired so I’m gonna go to bed because it’s five and I wake up at six for school.