He has been in an accident 7 months ago and had a severe tbi due to it. He was in a coma since then. I tried everything. And not from desperation. I visualised us getting married, having children, being a power couple, etc. I listened to slade's problem solving subliminal and other subliminals. I prayed. I worked on my self concept and on myself. I even saw angel numbers and signs everywhere.
As if the universe was confirming my manifestation. People would randomly come to me and tell me the things which would show that my manifestation is coming.
But yesterday I got the news that he is no more. He had a cardiac arrest and died while in a coma.
I feel so shattered and broken. Why did I get those signs? Do subliminals even work or were my past results just a mere chance. I just wanted him to be happy and healthy.
What do I even do? I feel so mad at god. So mad at myself for not being able to successfully manifest. Scripting mentally has become a habit to the point where even after hearing the news my brain subconsciously keeps suggesting "he has healed". But then I stop myself and remind myself. The visions i had visualised they feel so real to me that I don't understand why didn't they get true. They still feel true to me.
I saw posts on Pinterest saying ignore the 3d and blablabla. But what now? Neville said I am the operant creator, sammy said persist and ignore the 3d. But how do I work through this?