I’ve started feeling a strong sense of disgust toward certain things. This only seems to be getting stronger.
People talking senselessly and some times proudly about sex, masturbation, etc.
Women wearing revealing clothing
People telling me their gossip nonsense
Anyone else feel this way?
I was around the age of 9 upon my first viewing of porn. I didn’t question my usage of it until around 10 years later. I’m now 23. These last few years have been a battle between the soul and mind.
Why do we turn to porn, or sex for pleasure? Perhaps for some it’s strictly that, pleasure. However, for some it’s an escape, or coping mechanism.
For myself, it was an escape. An event occurred during my childhood, right before I had turned to porn. I was alone, vulnerable, emotionally distraught and without guidance.
Semen Retention has been the turning point in my life. You don’t realise how addictive your attachment to lust has become until you attempt to break free.
A lot of people who talk about the benefits of semen retention tend to mention surface level subjects, such as the attention from women and men, increased energy, making more money, etc.
Are these things great? Yes, absolutely. Everyone does things for their own reasons and goals. For myself, I’ve realised semen retention is the first of many steps to reclaiming the person I truly am, under a veil of lust, addiction, trauma, degeneracy, and self loathing. It’s not the end all be all. It’s the beginning of a lifestyle.
I’ve began to see life as I once saw it as a child. Colourful. Full of life. Possibility.
My teen years felt dull, lifeless and meaningless.
I was always focused on sex, physical attraction, and pleasure.
These things will destroy a child’s soul, let alone a man’s.
Semen retention is a conscious choice one makes to apply focus to other areas of life. Whether these areas are productive or destructive are based on the habits a person chooses to commit to.
You learn to stop thinking about streaks and the validation of external sources. This is a lifestyle. The battle is within, you are alone within your own keeping 24/7. The world was here long before you and will be here long after. Focus on living a lifestyle that is truly of great benefit and purpose to you, regardless of the opinions of others.
I’ve chosen this lifestyle for the person I once was. Full of life. Joyful. Colourful. I’ll make him proud, and I hope you can do the same for yourself.