Needing some outside perspective as my emotions are in turmoil.
My partner cheated on me 2 months ago - I found him on a dating app with flirty messages with a few moving off the platform onto one of his social media messages. We have been together a year at this point. And maybe I’m minimising it by saying nothing physical happened.
We talked and I decided to stay a work on this relationship, because apart from this incident he has been a good partner. We’ve always had an open phone policy with no issues, go on dates, talk about our lives and future, help each other financially when needed etc. which is why it was such a whiplash finding this out.
However it’s been two months since then, and while I seem to have accepted it logically - emotionally I have not. It comes up in my head every 2 weeks, the self doubt, the inner turmoil, and every time we argue I feel like an idiot for choosing to stay. I don’t want to use this event as a weapon.
I feel like I didn’t have time when it happened to step away and process this event that right now it’s just all come crashing down my emotions.
Ultimately I will have to make the choice to stay or leave.