Just need to vent.
I have a 10-month-old previously feral tabby. I wouldn't say I regret this cat, but I'm definitely mad at myself for lacking a spine. My partner and I were going to see a pair of older male cats. I was so excited and ready, but they were adopted out, so we settled for this cute, tabby one that we saw instead.
The foster agency had 0 information on him since he had been surrendered the day before. We took him. He's a bastard. All he does is bite, scratch, and act like he's starving. He was so food aggressive that to keep him from attacking us and making himself sick, we were conditioned to feed him an equivalent of like 10 meals a day. We reduced it to a specific amount given to us by the vet and he's only gotten meaner and naughtier.
I try to play with him for at least 45 minutes a day and he will always get bored or frustrated and will redirect himself to attack me. I started eating outside because him pursuing me all the time was exhausting. I can't even use the bathroom at night because he'll attack my feet demanding to be fed.
Vet says he's fine he's just lowkey bad. She prescribed him gabapentin and a spray bottle lol. The gabepentin makes him crazier but my partner is too afraid to up his dose. I try to keep this all to myself because I can't tell if what im Feeling is valid or if I'm just not a cat person. I've always had dogs and cats and I've had REALLY naughty cats but this is exhausting. He's sweet like 30% of the time. I'm too scared to touch him let alone pick him up. My poor partner is COVERED in bites and scratches and says it's okay because he loves him and the cat doesn't know any better. Idk. He loves our cat and it's not like I would ever want to get rid of him. I'm just so fucking tired. Why do some people get these cute cuddly babies and mine tries to slice my ankles for fun. I'm just sad and hoping to find solidarity I guess.