How do I move on while struggling with no contact.
My relationship ended a little over a month ago, I was left completely heart broken because the end was blurry and confusing. he wanted to have some conversation but I closed the door because I was very hurt by his action repeatedly, and the end felt like avoidance and excuses only. Although I realise now i wouldn’t have wanted it long term and feel relieved for that. I just cannot stop thinking about him and crying every day. I just feel how can someone who once I thought loved me so much be so inconsiderate and choose to ignore me in the most vulnerable moments. Regardless I am struggling to keep no contact. I have this endless urge to text and talk to him. I’ve tried for a month and it’s not getting better. I’m so tired of feeling so shitty and exhausted. And i feel guilty to block him everywhere not give him some grace. A lot of times I stop by thinking about my self respect (the last message was him leaving me seen when I told him how hurt I was, I got no response no acknowledgment, nothing.) that’s one thing holding me but it’s starting to loosen. I need some motivation and self confidence advices to move on.