u/Competitive_Crow6672

I've been using oat milk for a few months now, the Oatside Barista brand, but I've recently changed my steaming method to be a bit hotter than usual.

I don't know if it is this batch of Oatside Barista, it tastes more oaty than usual, or my steaming method, I made a few cups and it tasted like I put dirt inside. Or grass. it never tastes like this, and I've heated Oatly to this temperature before but it doesn't like dirt.

Has anyone had this experience before?

I met this guy at quite a vulnerable time in my life, where I was unsure of my standing and self-esteem. At the point of meeting him tho I wasn’t in the mindset to get into a relationship, so he was the one who changed my mind. 

The thing that makes this whole thing embarassing was that he was the one who gave the signals that he was interested, but I was the one who acted on them. I asked for his number first, I asked him to go out one on one first, and during the time I asked him out he gave me clear signals he didn’t like me like that.

So after each time I was like “Oh it’s ok he doesn’t like me“, but then he would suddenly act super interested the next day, and then when I would make the first move, he would send me a clear sign that he’s not interested.

The thing is these signs were not even private signs, he would do it in front of my friend group and involve other members of my friend group and it made me embarrassed.

The worst embarrassment was because now my whole friend group knew, they sort of subtly hinted they knew about it and labelled me this “naive, boy crazy” girl. They never said they knew what happened but what they joked about me pointed to that. This is the fault of my friend group, not him, but yeah.

The thing is because the embarrassment was so big I often find myself trying to rewrite the narrative. I go on Reddit and post about our story in hopes someone will comment “He actually liked you then” so that I can be like “oh yeah that was just me not picking up his signals!” but Reddit will be Reddit and they’ve Always told me the cold truth: “he just didn’t like you”.

It makes me spiral because I can’t seem to accept the truth: he didn’t like me, he only liked my attention, and I made a big embarrassment of myself, in front of him and my friends.