I had to put my 14 year old dog to sleep today and I can’t stop replaying the last moments in my head
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The first sedation shot worked incredibly fast. One moment he was happily sniffing around the room and exploring, and the next he just suddenly collapsed. I always heard stories about dogs coming over to their owners for a final goodbye, so the abruptness of it really shocked me.
Then things got harder. The vet couldn’t find a vein for the second injection. They tried multiple times, but his veins were too fragile because of his age. Eventually they had to do the injection directly into his heart.
I know logically that the sedation should’ve meant he wasn’t aware anymore, but I keep being terrified that he somehow felt panic or understood what was happening. The whole experience was so much more traumatic than I expected.
Has anyone else had a difficult euthanasia experience like this? I think I just need reassurance that he probably wasn’t scared in those final moments.