I can feel my depression creeping back in…
Female 33, I’ve had a stressful 10 years through my twenties in to my 30s. Had a child when I was 19 and decided to move out from his dad and coparent. For 10 years I didn’t have another relationship. Had multiple traumas through them years. In 22 met some and fel head over heals for him, ruined my life and I spiralled into severe depression. I’ve never felt good enough, zero confidence in myself just hated myself for a long time. 2 suicide attempts. Beginning of 23 got myself together, back to work and all that. Met someone beginning of 24 and he was like a breath of fresh air couldn’t be kinder, patient and loved me. He temporarily moved in July 25. Then start this new year 26 and we decided to move in together properly. But we moved to his home (45 mins from where I lived) yes not too far but far enough to feel the loneliness of not knowing anyone local. No family or friends. He doesn’t seem to understand the concept that I am struggling with the change and I just need to get on with it. Never puts me first. Works comes home tea the sleep. No conversation no nothing: for context I work three days a week he works five. So on the days he doesn’t work some conversation with an another human would be nice. Stopped helping round the house. Doesn’t help me fix things if there’s a problem with say the car or anything. I just feel the 6 temporary months we lived together was false and now this is the real him. I feel like I’ve made the biggest mistake of life and my mental health is declining scarily quick. Just any advice or anyone to chat too. Not sure what my point of this post is 😓