Advice on inner peace
Hi guys, so I have known about manifesting for a while now and can successfully manifest anything by just deciding and knowing it’s done.
However, I have this heaviness in my chest, this deep sadness that I don’t know what life has been without. I have lived like this for so long, unable to have routines, stay consistent etc. I have had a very difficult childhood with my father passing before I was born and my mother being extremely selfish and emotionally unstable, making me the emotional scapegoat. My brother who is much older than me also abused me verbally and emotionally quite a lot when I was younger and since I’m bit detached now, they keep complaining about me not caring enough. I’ve also been feeling obsessed with my ex.
I really need advice on where to start. I feel anxious and worried that I will stay stuck here forever; obsessing over an ex who I don’t even want back and worrying about the family dynamics. I come from an Asian household so I can’t leave my family behind. I could go to therapy but they don’t align with my beliefs on manifestations and conscious creation hence I can’t follow them properly. I have so much potential as a person but my body feels stuck and unsafe and would really appreciate some advice here. Thank you all ❤️