moon-saturn hard aspects and people not taking pain seriously
hi, i'm wondering if other people with hard aspects between moon and saturn experience this. i have a square, and i feel like my expressions of needing help are not taken seriously. and maybe if my pain (emotional, mental, physical) has been so chronic and ongoing that people around me are desensitized to it. i feel like it's brushed off. even when my expressions of needing help are quite serious, like for basic needs. i feel like i'm in a time where i'm supposed to be learning that it's ok and good to lean on others, because i'm struggling and need the support, but what i'm learning is that actually i can't...that i do in fact need to be extremely self-sufficient.
i also am seeing again something i learned as a child. many people say they are there for you and then actually are not. and reserve their care for their very immediate families. this isn't always the case, at all. but i just am kind of being reminded that it is for a lot of people. people have their social and familial priorities. i'm in my late 20s, and i'm thinking about how if my parents were people i could rely on, this wouldn't be so hard. but they are not reliable and on top of that are not resourced.
i'm kind of having this humbling realization that maybe other people don't care as much as i thought they did. or in some cases, as much as i do. i have really good friends, i'm not upset with them really. i think it's my own family and family friends, people a lot older who have more resources. i don't know. i am feeling like when i get back on my feet, i kind of just want to go really far away and just be by myself.
i'm reminded of a time where i was in an extreme crisis, really far away from my family, and they had the resources to come get me and be with me and no one did. that isolation also changed my life i think.
I feel like this is very moon square saturn. wondering about others' experiences.