How do you get through a boring placement
I’m a first year nursing student. Being a nurse isn’t something I am passionate about and this was reinforced pretty quickly once my placement began.
Before people begin to tell me to change my course before it’s too late, I can’t and I won’t because my parents expect me to become a nurse long story short I don’t want them to be disappointed for the second time and that’s all I will go into detail about.
To be blunt. I hate placement. I hate the course. I’m not meant to be a nurse. The placement I’m in right now is endoscopy. I just feel like a hindrance more than anything. I am keen to learn, I obviously make the effort to be a good student nurse by asking questions, researching etc, but I just can’t get into placement. I hate waking up early, transportation, going to placement, having nothing to do when it’s not busy or the repetitiveness of my placement.
I do try and make conversation with other nurses and HCA’s but they have their own group of friends and I just feel out of place and it feels like shit.
I genuinely dread going in to placement every shift and I’ve felt like this from the start.
Does it get better?
I know there are some people that are in my situation, studying this course for their family. Please tell me how you guys cope because I feel like I’m slowly losing myself.