Roller Derby Skill Level Insecurity
I'm about 8 months into my Roller derby journey, 4 months was the 101 program, and I'm feeling dejected.
The logical part of me knows that derby takes a long time to learn and get used to, but all of the other individuals that started with me are either dropping out or moving much faster than me leaving me feeling isolated.
I keep falling, I'm not as fast, I feel so unsteady most of the time. I can barely skate on 1 foot for more than 3 seconds, can't do transitions at much speed and can't move laterally quickly to save my life. I'm on the B team, but feel so out of sorts there and feel like I'm just there by default.
The community is supportive, but I feel so much pity from others and I really hate that. I don't even want to be a star, I just want to be competent. I go to every practice (twice a week) and practice a few times at home and feel like I have to work 10x harder than everyone else just to barely keep up.
I do enjoy it, but I'm so tired of getting my butt kicked just to be below mediocre. Is it normal to struggle this much, does anyone have advice as to how to keep your chin up during these hard times? Should I give up?