20f have been single for almost two years and has only been on two official dates between that time despite trying/ looking for a year plus. My first relationship was short and not good at all but it thought me a lot.
Every guy I seem to meet only wants something quick and casual which is not me. I really cannot enjoy doing anything sexually intimate with someone who I don’t know. I just crave emotional intimacy and closeness.
I have a group of amazing friends who I consider my soulmates and I have a lot of hobbies and love physical activity too😢 this is all great and amazing but it doesn’t take away the fact that I still want to feel a deep connection with someone of the opposite gender. I am just sick of people saying “focus on yourself” yada yada I’ve always done that I am still allowed to want love!
I just asked a guy if he wants to go watch a movie with me, a guy who I’ve been kind of talking too and who at times has shown interest in me/ pursued me first. His response was that he’s busy and working all summer which is chill and I understand that but darn it😭😭
When is it going to my freaking turn. I’m jto mad about this one rejection I am mad at everything. Everyone seems to be going on fun dates finding a partner quickly mean while I cannot even find one decent guy who would consider me or see me as more than something to sleep with.
I am not looking for advice I am just venting. I have truly exhausted everything and I don’t even care anymore. I just feel like sedating myself anytime I see couples 😭😔 (when’s it going to be my turn)