I want to be nothing and everything.
I want someone to make me feel special but also taste the bitter feeling of loneliness. I want to become obsessed with something, try my hardest to master it and then just stop doing it. I want to spend my whole life chasing a higher self but I also want to fall. Hard. I want to experience the depths of my lowest point and rebuild my life from there. I want to love but I also want to stay in solitude. I want to experience heartbreak and betrayal just so i can show myself that i possess the ability to get up and get going despite everything. I want to fall hard for someone i know I'll never get to taste the raw feeling of yearning and frustration of not being able to do anything about it. I want to live- I want to stay curious about everything and learn about everything I'm curious about. I want to have deep conversations at midnights and at afternoons. I also want to have small talks! I want to become friends with someone who hates me. I want to be kind and always giving. So basically like the woman in the beginning of movies where you know she'll die in the movie when you watch a couple of her scenes.
I want life like i never imagined.
I want nothing and everything.